no more dreaming....with the wrong world.

I don't understand it all. What does FOREVER means? What does it mean. I really don't understand. I'm tired of thinking...so tired....of thinking and tears.

My mind is full. FULL....tired....and empty at the same.

I NEED TO COME ALIVE.
...I'm too tired.

GOD I don't know what I'm doing.
GOD I don't know where I'm going.

He called himself the man that can't be moved.
Did he move?
Where did he go?
Is he coming back?
I'm tired....
I'm tired......
I'm tired.........

I'm sleeping for hours.....because I feel exhausted....I can't eat....because my stomach feels full all the time....when I sleep.....dreams are empty....or wake me up.....I need to come alive....need to come alive....

SO TIRED
SO TIRED
SO TIRED

...going to sleep for my sleep to be disturbed by heavy heavy such heavy thoughts....