break down

I guess this is my break down post. I can't stand it anymore. Relationship like this hurts....He has no idea how painful it is for me. Why can't i let it go for once and show how much I really care. The music sways me...and I wish to swya with him....I wanted to be his cocaine, his cigarette....his glass of vodka....take away his everyday baggage and make him forget...
I would love to forget...for once....