Thursday, 13 August 2009

...hell....

This is a collection of images which give away my mood....I picked them...because for me they all link to eachother somoehow....This week will be very stressful...at least one day in this week will be.....but it's my foult and I know it. If I did what was my ''duty"...I would never feel like this. This is the last thing I need for happiness...everything will work if this one last thing will happen....im fighting with this for over 2 years now....shit....shit....shit....

What do you say to your boyfriend when he says that he has so many problems....and only you can understand him...that he needs you? How would you feel....like nothing....useless....as you can't help the one you love the most....to be together with him. I need to start modeling again....but then I can't do modeling....and need some miracle....I wish that miracles could live in little houses...and you could visit them and get some power of them....these miracles would be like grandmothers....with fresh baked cookies...and hot chocolate with cynamon....you would visit them.....play with their dog....and your dreams will come true....

Why at age of 16 you have to decide how to get a job...as a model...and be on constent diet...even though none of these diet works....then your agent is mad....and you have to listen to another story about your future..and how great it would be.....if you could just leave your school...and start model for real....and then even if you know that education is the key.....you tasted freedom not once and not twice....it tastes beautiful......and you know that if you start modeling you can go and visit your boyfriend....be with him!GOD!!!!Be with him....for real....all this freedom makes you leave your parents....for so long....and you don't want that...you don't want them to worry....but if you earn money you know you can earn for better eduaction....for better life for your parents....so now....where is the line....and which side to stand on?And how?

HELL.....

FUCKING HELL.....







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http://shefakesit.tumblr.com/

Her past

These images do not belong to me....well some do...but I will point out which do....so yeah I have no rights to these photographs.
This is just ermmm...inspiration....for me...stuff that don't fit on my poor wrecked laptop...and my fucked up head...and huge, old skechbook..and hmmm...if you wanna look through my stuff go ahead...this is what blogs are for, right?...

YOU KNOW ALL THIS SHIT anyway....

Stay away stay away SHE's a heel of a devil SHE will make you sway.