Saturday, 23 May 2009

Abbey Lee Kershaw in Dazed & Confused June 2009, Chic Surrealism.

Yes, I do have an illness and it is freedom.

I had an amazing time with artists I met two really famous ones, both of them on their way to other part of the world. It hit me, it hit me so bad. I wanted just to pack my bags and go. I wanted it so bad. I don't know when I started being like this. I miss everything what is out there. I think that it started from my little trips, when I started working as a model. I promised myself that I won't work for now, because I've got to do stuff at school. I promised myself that I won't travel. It kills me inside every day, every hour, everyy minute. It's life, I am missing IT. I want IT. I want freedom.

I had really weird day. It was very calm. It doesn't matter how hard i tried to concentrate on art. It didn't work, as I had HIM on my mind all day. At some point I caught myself calling him, and I wanted to call my mother. I need to do something with this mad feeling inside. I want it to go. I'm in the middle of looking at collages in London. I might find better ones. Then I will start to turn from thinking into doing. I've made a decision. I have to go to London. I need it.

"You need dreams and you need to follow them" said someone really important to me today. I have dreams there is one thing missing. I wish they could sell it on shops. I wish I could just pick it up from a shelf, and bring home with me.
He helped me with this, but now that I know it will take more time for him to move here, which means I won't see him. That little thing that he began in me disappears. I looked around and I can't find it.

PS: I hope you all have that last piece that will help you to finally touch your dreames.

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Her past

These images do not belong to me....well some do...but I will point out which yeah I have no rights to these photographs.
This is just ermmm...inspiration....for me...stuff that don't fit on my poor wrecked laptop...and my fucked up head...and huge, old skechbook..and hmmm...if you wanna look through my stuff go ahead...this is what blogs are for, right?...


Stay away stay away SHE's a heel of a devil SHE will make you sway.